Lulu
2013-04-25 12:24:25 UTC
The only reason why I want to get home schooled is because I don't feel like I really fit in with people in my school and I have a pretty low self esteem and I get stressed very easily. I also have some family issues and it just makes me harder to go to school and concentrate.
I kind of understand that home schooling won't do any better in this situation but I have missed a lot of school this year by lying to my parents that I don't feel well so I could get to stay off school. They already got called in to come and talk to my guidance teacher at school for my low attendance rate.
My parents clearly know that I don't like going to school and it's just a waist of time because I am not interested in half of the subjects I do there anyways. When I'm 19/20 I want to move to USA to do something with acting or photography.
First off I am not originally British. I moved to UK 4 years ago. I still find English at school pretty hard and I'm in the lowest English class and there are only boys who get told off all the time from talking etc so we hardly do anything in class because of that. I mean, if I got home schooled, wouldn't it be easier for me to expand more on my English? I mean, when we read stories at school and the have to write essays on them, I don't even know what some words mean and we don't even get to use dictionaries because apparently school thinks that my English is very good.
When it comes to Biology, I failed my test on Biodiversity topic in October because I found it very boring and useless. It's not like I want to do anything with forests or animals in the future anyways. I mean, it's good to know how everything changed but that doesn't interest me and I think it's just a waist of time when I could be learning something that does have interest such as topics to do with cells, dna, stem cells and more.
I just really don't know how to talk to my mum and what to tell her because how I said, I had some very big issues with my family in the past 4 years that have stressed me a lot and that's another reason why I lost my self confidence. I honestly find pretty difficult to fit in at my school and find friends. If I did get home school, I would find some way to join some kind of sport or find something to do with acting which could help me out in the future if I get lucky enough to move out and do something related to acting in US.
BUT MY MUM WONT LISTEN!
I tried talking to her today and when I mentioned about me getting home school she just left my room straight away and was like 'No one gets home school so don't be silly. Finish school properly and blah blah blah..........' I did start crying when she left because she doesn't really know how I feel and how hard I find to be in school and find friends. Also she has kinda ruined my life by taking me to live with her in UK. I hate living here. I got over weight and all because I stopped doing all my favorite activities when I moved here. I lived in the capital of Lithuania where there was a lot to do and now I live in a tiny boring town at the east coast of Scotland where there is completely nothing to do to succeed..
It depresses me soo much.
I can't get my mum to listen to me at all..
How could I get her to? :(